A lot of waiting
Don’t you hate to wait? Especially when it is something that is important or exciting to you?
The important issue that is giving me anxious moments is the medical thing. Ya I posted about how frustrating it is and how I just wish it would be over, but hey it is still hanging around. Had a CT yesterday in Austin and go back to a specialist Tuesday. So the waiting will not be over soon.
The other more exciting event I am waiting on is the retreat I am going on the middle of this month. It’s with a bunch of us that get together on retreat about three or four times a year. We have a ball and actually get some quilting done. Some get more done that others. Getting a bunch done is not that important to me as the fellowship is. We have a BALL!
But this waiting brings me back to the waiting days we used to have when I was teaching. I would hear fellow teachers saying just three more days to the weekend, or ten more days to Thanksgiving. They would be counting down the days to the next break. Their whole lives were spent counting the days until they could do something they enjoyed. Or perhaps they looked at as counting the days until they got a break from doing something they did not like doing. It seemed so sad to me, it was like they were wasting their lives, frittering them away waiting for other parts of it to start. That is spending 71% of your life waiting.
It is bad enough that we have to spend a certain amount of our life in sleep and other life sustaining activities, but to voluntarily give away such a large proportion of our lives to doing something that makes up dream of being elsewhere is wasteful. If you don’t like what you are doing now, don’t dream of times to come, but make NOW something that keeps your attention focused on now.
So with that in mind, I am making up my lists of what I want to do NOW. I may not get to all of them, but I am going to enjoy doing what I can.
Does that mean I am not going to anticipate the retreat? NO, cause to me the anticipation is part of the fun. I am picturing myself at the retreat, talking to my friends, seeing the work they have done and what they are working on now. I see myself staying up all night due to excitement and having a ball.
Will I spend time and energy being frustrated over this medical thing taking so long to resolve? Probably. I am not perfect and will get frustrated at the limitations forced on me with this yuckiness of vertigo but I will work harder not to let it get me down.
By the way, I updated my Crazy Quilt page with some new photos showing the progress I am making on it. You might want to take a look by clicking on the tab above.